Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Hais today i keep pester her. I noe i totally no chance then i was purposely make myself like e worst guy i can ever gt ~ i being childlish but is all becoz i m stuck wif wat to do .. actually i wanna be wif jus friends wif her de, but i m afraid i cant help to like her again ~ so i provked her and ask her to choose whether wan me to leave her life or nt ~ but e fact actually wat she choose, i will choose to leave her life treat as i nv exist ~ she wont understand y i had to do tis ~ i noe it seems childlish but i m suffering ~ coz i duno y i tears so much for her but she wont even noe or cares. All she say is nt worth it ~ i mean i dun wan her pityness also ~
I really wan her to be happy..i see tat i m making her life worst .. so i choose to leave her life... delete n blk msn ~ she is faster than me delete in friendster .. i noe she's angry becoz tat actually wat i wan ~ i dun wan to be someone tat trouble her ... i rather she hate me then like feel bad jus for me coz i dun need u to feel bad for me.. Girl u nv noe hw i feel ... it is nt easy to see e one u like keep talking abt e Guy she like n then all he can do is cheer u up encouraging u but wat did he gt ? He jus wan u to be happy but it seems is painful.. Cant be wif someone u like is painful.. but seeing someone u like liking someone else n keep telling u wat they do n they need to endure is kinda of suffering...
E xmas present i prepare i really felt like i dun wanna gif her le nt her fault coz i wanna make myself like less painful coz if i gif her i will like think i gt hope ~ i dun wanna lie to myself ~ girl u say i 23 ask me think~
U say i duno u much but hw much u noe me ~ who tell u i dun think ~ i m someone wif plans i do thinkings ~ mayb we really duno much but i thx for those days chatting wif u ~ lastly i nv exist in ur life but i nv 4gt u...Wat i done is jus throw away like tat coz i dun wanna hold on to her..I didnt mean to do tat but i had no choice.. Coz She will live better wifout me.. My existence was jus so trouble for her..
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