I did a quiz abt wat ur charc wif birthday
Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Think forward. Unique. Brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. amiable. Brave. generous. Patient. Stubborn. hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Doesn't appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keeps secrets. Cant control emotions. Unpredictable.
Haha quite true ~ Sometimes i really like to be alone. I m always provoked by some frends keep annoying me ~ i mean there is a limit y do u mus make me angry then u all noe hw to stop. U think its funny keep laughing at me ~ but its nt funny to me at all. So pls dun push things over de line.
4:31 AM
I know i have been thinking alot lately ! Think of future of wat m i gonna be ~ kinda of stuck seriously though is clear tat i wanna be hairstylist but i starting to doubt myself whether i can do it or nt. I had lost my confidence in everything seriously ~ I really duno hw sometime i jus feel like giving up everything here n fly to somewhere else n start afresh but tat's running away from reality. I know i m nt gd looking nor rich nor talented. Basically i m jus somebody who isnt gd at anything. I know i m jus some useless guy who talk alot more than taking action.
It really suck to be me sometimes. I really look into mirror n scold myself why am i so weak ! U know de feeling of being so down? I trying to be strong coz i need to be strong. I need to overcome these obstacles i noe i m suck at alot of thing i trying to improve ~ i noe no ppl can see my effort but i myself know deep inside. My attitude towards learning is postitive!
I really miss her .. I m here for you whenever u need me. I want to see you being happy =) tat's my goal! Of coz my greatest goal is share happiness n sorrow wif u ! =) I miss u ..I really do
7:37 AM
Today it really isnt a very gd day for me~ i happen to serve an auntie who wanted a retouch ~ ok i did de consultation and prepared for the coloring ~ i did my sectioning properly and i noe wat i m doing but tis auntie jus dun trust me somehw ~ like retouch i need to brush de top n below ~ she keep saying i didnt apply de top only brush down ~ i told her i did n i show her hw i do she keep insist i just nw didnt ~ then i was like sianz already coz i really did wat is correct n like i was wrong . I was kinda of unhappy then she start to say i apply too thin nt thick enuf ~ omg i was like i use alot of colors i apply damn thick le i use abt 1 and a half tube for her hair already ~ i mean she really judge me until like i first time doing it then i start to gt piss off coz i dun like to being doubt~ then i do nv like messy duno y she keep take tissue n wipe n tsk tsk ~ then i gting more piss off ~ is nt like i anyhw then she like tat~
then i gt really piss off and wanted to ask lao shi to let other ppl wash for it.
Coz really like no pride doing it ~ coz is nt like i m new to it ~ she make me feel like i m shit i m so worst i m piss off n damn low morale. Then i walk off of coz she need to wait for de color to process~ then i tell laoshi de prob ~ then veeron n jj laoshi console me ~ veeron laoshi say i attiude ar ~ she say i like tat meet tis kind of customer mus show my "feng du" and finish it off ~ Then JJ laoshi say just smile sure can de ~ then i listen to them n cool dwn n i try to keep smile but instead of smile i keep laughing until like some crazy guy keep laugh non stop ~ coz i dun wan myself to be angry over such thing for too long soon i gt over it ~ then i wash her head ~ her head seems to be damn heavy then her hair keep stuck ~ then washing was ok i was gentle i even talked nicely ~ ok it happen to be abit betta coz she start talk to me abt hw long she come here n she noe laoshi here n there i jus oh okay. Of coz is from my heart la ~ then when come to blowdry ~ i did gt her she say she wanna blow tongs i was like huh then i ask laoshi wat is blow tongs ~ then actually is setting~
Haha then ok we gt 2 type of setting roller 1 is i duno hw to spell is like vercon or wat then she say will make her n stuck n pain she wan the another type ~ which i didnt really use much ~ ok tat's nt the main pt ~ setting of coz i noe wat to do ~ i mean her hair is quite dmg if i blowdry first it will be hard to roll ~ she keep like end up teaching me wat to do ok i endure then she shoot me say your teacher nv teach u meh ~ i also endure n smile n say ya they did ~ then i blowdry as wat she wan ~ then i start to do n she like qns me y nt higher end mus comb hor ~ i mean i noe wat to do ma ~ of coz i didnt show my unhappiness ~ then her hair is long n short so it tends to haf some hair out ~ then like keep saying y her hair out then i jus redo it for her~ then ppl offer to help then she like damn happy then i do she like nt happy keep saying me ~ then ask i hw long then say i like duno hw to do like tat ~ wah tis really hurting lor ~ u r like saying i duno hw to do when i noe hw ~ is nt i m those lazy bum sitting at sch do nth ~ i dare to say i m quite hardworking ~ i put in effort in learning ~ i did expect ppl to appreciate it but at least respect my work ~ end up i was like drop down to earth ~ damn low morale ~ i still endure ~
Then after the heating ~ take out the rollers she like super no patient keep take out herself~ then i wanna comb for her end up she comb herself n use hairdryer to style it~ to me is a big insult ~ coz it like i m useless i do nth ~ like she is de stylist liao i m assitant~ of coz laoshi do is diff coz they is correct n teach ~ but she doesnt care she jus do it ~ then i wanna gt de mirror n de spray for her end up she grab her mirror n make her ~ i was like hais super low morale ~ make feel like m i really tat worst? i nearly like damn low morale seriously coz to me is impt abt client satisfaction ! But nvm i will be betta next time ! I m nt gonna gif up my dream so easily ! I come so far i will nv gif up something i like so easily ! I am a dream chaser ! I mus fufill my dream ! GANBATTE NE ! I miss u..
7:18 AM
Recommending tis song by Green day Last Night On Earth
I text a postcard, sent to you
Did it go through?
Sending all my love to you.
You are the moonlight of my life every night
Giving all my love to you
My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles til I found you
I'm here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
I'm sending all my love to you.
With every breath that I am worth
Here on earth
I'm sending all my love to you.
So if you dare to second guess
you can rest assured
That all my love's for you
My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles til I found you
I'm here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
I'm sending all my love to you.
My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles til I found you
I'm here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
Did I ever make it through?
I find it quite nice n like the lyrics.Hope you like it
3:57 AM
Hasnt been blogging for quite awhile ~ well today is a special day to me ~ after alot of consideration and courage ~ supposely i wanted to make a confession on 30th june ~ but i find tat timming isnt really gd ~ but today i feel like is a last chance for me to express my feeling. I had been thinking on hw to say n plan on hw the things go ~ k i gt de kitty in mind just for her ~ coz i find it cute and lovely ~ i gt her the flower which is blue roses which i personally find it nice n rare ~ jus happen tat she like it too =) ok back to my confession well i was caught by her ~ so there isnt any big suprise for her ~ no.1 fail ~ then cat caught my tongue i was lost for words i didnt hw to talk i jus happen to say i have a confession u noe i really like u i hope u can gif me a chance. Supposely i meant to say something more like i wanna spend the rest of the time with you ~ enjoy laughter together comfort u when u r sad ~ wipe ur tears when u r crying. I meant i really wanna be there for her n want her happy! i jus duno y i cant say out tis ~
But its really my first time making confession to someone i like. Mayb u all might nt believe ~ i nv really make a confession to someone. I feel tat i wasnt sincere enuf i choose to face to face becoz i wanna show my sincere tat i really do care abt her and i m serious. Though i muster alot of courage. She ask whether i need an immediate answer i say no.
Coz i dun wan my confession end up burdening her life. I dun want stress her after all i know her probs.She told me she's not ready for an relationship yet ~ so i respect her descision i meant i cant really like force her to be wif me if she doesnt want. She mention tat let's be friends first then let nature take courses!
I respect it. Of course i was kinda of low coz i feel tat i wasnt sincere enuf.
But i just want her to know that i really do care abt her. I am serious abt her. I am nt like trying to gt a gf for sake of gting one. Coz she's different she is unique to me.I like her is nt becoz of her looks or figure or wat. Is my feeling for her is strong and i really feel some connection ~ i like her charc ~ i like who she is !
Of course i hope tat we could move on an relationship in the future. I am just afraid i might screwup coz i nt someone who is gd at wooing girls. She mention tat i wooing girls very si xin ~ i meant i just wanna gif the best to HER. Duno when will i see her again. Wish she could hang out wif me when she's free.
Anyway no matter wat most impt is still seeing her HAPPY ! Coz the way she smile really melts me ~ seeing her happy i will be happy too. So i m excited to see her !
Haha !
8:15 AM
