I know i had not being blogging for quite long. Mayb nobody will be read this but it doesnt matter i just need a space to voice out.Yeah I grad from kimage le then i gt Remedial Training and manage to pass my ippt. But i couldnt find a job until recently i work at bishan a neighbourhood saloon work 2 days nia i tio fired. The boss say nt much customers so dun need me. But i think coz i nt wat she expect ba. She tat day ask shampoo and blow dry for her. I wash nt comfortable and blow nt dry enuf. I know my weakness is shampooing and blowdry. I know my basic nt gd tat y i wanna work n train it. But tis boss seems to expect me to be stylist and want me to lie to customers tat i had been in this line for years. Which i couldnt do it. Then is like gt some customers then she nv tell me where to gt tis n tat and wat. She like expect me to know everything.
But i nt famailar wif de workplace at all so i duno de stuff. And i can see she is happy with me coz i cant help her much. Is like she also dare let me do. I wanna watch her do then she tell me dun stand next to her n see coz ltr ppl know i am learning. I was thinking i am here to learn not anyhow whack.She ask me seat down n use mirror to see. So i listen but i see her facial expression is like so unhappy.I cant communicate with her well.I can sense tat she is nt happy with me coz no customers then i only can seat there and read magazine coz really nth to do. I wanna wash towels she say too little. I wanna take towel in n fold she say ltr. I find tat i was wasting my time but i expect to endure 1mth at least coz i need money and some experience i nv expect she like tat fire me.
Is a gd and bad thing. Good thing is i no need endure the pain of doing nth n wait for time off the bad thing is i dun have pay and i cant gt experience. I didnt expect my life to be like tat just after i found out something that hurt me.I found out my frend is wif the girl i used to like.It happen again!I dont blame them. But i just cant tahan is the guy scold me vulgar during gaming and talk to me with an attiude prob. I kept quiet even i noe he is already with the girl i like. Then i cant stand it i just dun wanna see it so i delete them off.You may think i m childish but i just dun wanna see it nia.
I know that it always that which girl i like will nv like me. Always end up with others. I surrender already after so many cases. I dont expect anybody to understand how i feel. But i cant have love tat's the fact i gt to face. I only can see people holding each other happily while i am just standing alone at a corner.Mayb my previous life i break people's heart. So this life i gt heart breaks.Sometime it really hurts so much that i wanna gif up love. Now i dun dare to think of having anyone accompany me for the rest of my life. I am prepared to be single for the rest of my life. I know i yearn for love but i will nv have wat i want.Mayb tis is jus retribution for my previous life.
I know i am not some handsome guy or some rich guy i am also not someone who is super nice.But sometimes i do feel like why am i living in this world with pains. I only can see ppl xing fu but i will nv gt xingfu.I just hope my next life wont be like me now.
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